Faulty Expectation

Dove

The sight of a dove was never close enough

For you to want to see

And now that I'm moving, life has been proving

It's got something out for me

When the wheels start turning 'cross bridges burning

And I turn the key

I'll always remember the month of September

How it stole my dreams from me

How it stole my dreams

 

But if you long for the love you see in the movies

Darling, come and see me

You know where I'll be

You know where I'll be

'Cause nothing changes

Nothing changes with me

 

The call of a dove was never loud enough

For us to hear

Call it fate or just some cosmic mistake

In the stars, and that's what I fear

 

So I will still cling to my faith by a string

In hopes I can call you dear

And if by surprise, the stars do align

I'd give you all of my years

I'd give 'em all

 

So, when you long for the love you see in the movies

Darling, come and see me

You know where I'll be

You know where I'll be

'Cause nothing changes

Nothing changes with me

 

 

Postcard

There's reasons for leaving

But god, I miss your hands

And we all live in moments

We'll never see again

 

There's giants on the horizon

But not the ones I know

And soon, with the winter

Comes a colder kind of snow

 

Oh, and just one more thing before I go

I don't think I can do this on my own

 

So now everywhere I'm going

The faces look the same

Like life's just one big railroad

And people, boxcar trains

 

So I'll keep it in a postcard

The things that make me think of you

And I'll always try to send them

Lord knows why I do

 

Oh, and just one more thing before I go

I don't think I can do this on my own

 

 

Faulty Expectation

Somewhere up inside a cloud

Between the ground and the stars above

The trees, they cast their silhouette

On the misty light diffused overhead

 

Spring left its last legacy

A foggy night of reverie

And summer moved relentlessly ahead

And the night was not too cold to call my friend

 

But lately, all these thoughts of mine

They all just tend to age like wine

Grow bitter if I give them too much time

It's the faulty expectation of the vine

 

Dreaming deep of what could be

Been lost in all my memories

But hope can quickly turn to grief

And suddenly, I have no breath to speak

 

The words I want

The love I seek

Fulfillment of some destiny

These images that I often create

I can't help thinkin'

That they might be some kind of fate

 

But I know you

And you know me

We know there's so much more to see

So why are our eyes closed all the time?

 

We feel the fire but we don't see the light

We feel the fire but we don't see the light

We feel the fire but we don't see the light

We fuel the fire but we don't see the light 

 

Yellow Eyes

What did you do with those yellow eyes?

The ones that used to shine so bright

Like stars, the rulers of the night

 

And all your friends, they realigned

For the change, it had to come

The dark was getting kinda numb

Is it still?

 

But the world left you behind

Like a telephone with an empty line

And the buzzing is all you can hear

And they said you went away

Said you didn't wanna stay

But those yellow eyes

Say otherwise

 

You get used to being alone

But you're still reaching for that phone

But the words, they never seem to flow

 

And where they went, you'll never know

'Cause it's a game of touch and go

But the runway's covered in snow

Is it still?

 

And the world left you behind

Like a telephone with an empty line

And the buzzing is all you can hear

Well, they said you went away

Said you didn't wanna stay

But those yellow eyes

Say otherwise

 

And Jesus, he is all that's in your head

With all the prayers he hasn't answered yet

Does it get cold in your single bed?

Is it still?

 

 

Gentle

Where've you been, my darling?

Where've you been, my dear?

Where've you been for all these years?

You're drying all my tears

 

I'll see you in the morning

Dawn creeps as you sleep

The orange glow on your resting eyes

The most beautiful thing I've ever seen

 

And if I close my eyes for a minute

I'd be missing too much

'Cause you know I wouldn't be seeing

That smile I love so much

And I lose my heart for a minute

It goes to you, my love

Oh, when I'm feelin'

The gentle warmth of your touch

 

All the perfect hours

All the perfect days

Oh, you've got me dreaming

In all kinds of ways

 

You came without a warning

Came here to this place

Left me with the memories

I never want to erase

 

And if I close my eyes for a minute

I'd be missing too much

'Cause you know I wouldn't be seeing

That smile I love so much

And I lose my heart for a minute

It goes to you, my love

Oh, when I'm feelin'

The gentle warmth of your touch

The gentle warmth of your touch

The gentle warmth of your touch

 

 

(Go and Find) A Better Thing

Go and find a better thing

It's obvious I can't make you sing no more

You hear the sounds of the city ring

But I've got mountains at my door

 

The hole that's formed in our love's roof

Is dropping glimpses of the truth

And the water screams with every ping

Honey, go and find a better thing

 

With our distant, patched up hearts

Minds on a wavelength apart

Oh, I will never be

Who you want me to be

I wouldn't know where to start

 

So, where do I direct the blame?

Perhaps the stars, perhaps my shame

For dreaming of a sweet refrain

At the end of every night

 

So, who was wrong and who was right?

Either way, we lost the fight

Fate, it pulls you by the strings

Honey, go and find a better thing

 

With our distant, patched up hearts

Mine's on a wavelength apart

Oh, I will never be

Who you want me to be

I wouldn't know where to start

I wouldn't know where to start

I wouldn't know where to start

 

Forever

Can you hear me tonight in this space?

Our dreams, they're as close as ever

My life is yours to take

So take it as you will

 

Can you hear me tonight through my tears?

The ones I am saving for the big one

When I'll be sure that my mind don't lie

When you go, and I'm still here

 

But how can I dream when my only dream

Belongs to somebody else

Empty nights and candlelight

Are all I'm bound to see

 

Can you hear me tonight, I've been calling

But it seems that I can't get through

And it breaks my heart, like it always do

When my love songs start to turn blue

 

Can you hear me tonight, I wonder?

But I try not to do that anymore

Through years of restless searching

I hope you find what you're looking for

 

But how can I dream when my only dream

Belongs to somebody else

Empty nights and candlelight

Are all I'm bound to see

 

For all I know

None of this is real

For all I know

Your heart is right here

 

But speculation burns

Through my soul like an ember

It's so hard to remember you here

 

Can you hear me tonight in this space?

My dream, you're as close to me as ever

My life is yours to take

So take it please, forever 

 

I Love You, Dear

I've got everything I want

A couple of kids just running through the yard

And I've got a dog that never barks

And I've got you

So I guess it's true

That I'd have everything I hoped for here

If I just said "I love you, dear"

If I had said "I love you, dear"

 

We've got a van that never runs

It's a project, oh we thought it would be fun

For the road trip that we planned out to the sunny

Shores of California

And I'm torn

'Cause I'd be seeing all those waves of blue

If I just said "I love you"

If I just said "I love you"

 

And we've got a place to call our own

It's nothing much, but damn it sure feels like a home

And I'm not scared that I will ever be alone

Oh, with you here

So I guess it's clear

There'd be no reason for all my fears

If I just said "I love you, dear"

If I just said "I love you, dear"

 

And he would not exist

The man who stole your heart and filled your eyes with bliss

And I wouldn't have known that from the moment you two kissed

Oh, I'd be obscure

And I'd never hear

Him say the words to you I lost in fear

He'd never say "I love you, dear"

If I had said "I love you, dear"

 

 

Dam

Think I'll just hang this one up

'Cause I hear the wolves a-comin'

And I feel like giving up

Don't see no sense in running

 

When I was a child, I had a dream

But it was clouded by reality

And just when I thought I'd been freed

See those clouds movin' in again

 

And you raise your eyes up to the skies

And you see the clouds a-darken

And the rains of all your sorrows start to pour

And after a while, the dam behind your eyes is overflowin'

It's true, you just can't do this anymore

The cracks, you feel them start to form

 

I know where I'm going

But I don't want to leave

These flowers I've been sowing

I don't want them to fade

 

'Cause everything I've ever wanted

Is right within my reach

Oh, but you should know by now, boy

You gotta practice what you preach

 

So you raise your eyes up to the skies

And you see the clouds a-darken

And the rains of life, of love, they start to pour

And after a while, the dam behind your eyes is overflowin'

And it shows, you just can't do this anymore

The cracks, you feel them start to form

 

So you raise your eyes up to the skies

And you see the clouds a-darken

And the rains of life, of love, they start to pour

And after a while, the dam behind your eyes is overflowin'

And it's true, you just can't do this anymore

The cracks, you feel them start to form

 

Kingdom of Your Past Life

Well, the jester gave you solace

For all the lies that you have told

And you found some sort of security

In the barren depths of your soul

And you think, for once, you've got it

In the palm of your hand

But still it's hard to know

When to sit and when to stand

 

And the queen, she gave you hope

For all the things you've yet to find

Then she tore out your heart

For the sacrificial rites

And she gave it back with kindness

Saying, "Here, you'll need this now"

But still, you're trying to find out

How to make it beat, somehow

 

So the king, he gave you riches

To clear your stormy skies

For only one thing in return

Every second of your life

So you turned away from the glory

Turned away from those things

But still, it seems you're scared

To see a diamond in a ring

 

So you took it all to heart

These gifts that they had gave

In the kingdom of your past life

They watch the person they had made

Stand before the altar

And pray to here and now

Thankful for the lessons

That got me here, somehow

 

 

Scared (These Days)

It's these days where I can't tell if you need me

It's these days that I hate to see you fall

And I'm torn between the peace of home

And the distant traveler's call

I guess these days, I don't know much at all

 

And I'm scared to see you in the arms of another

And I'm scared that I'll be held by someone, too

And I'm torn between my peace of mind

And my lonesome dreams of you

 

I'm scared I'll realize what I have to do

I'm scared I'll realize what I have to do

 

 

Far 

(Instrumental)

All lyrics by Andreas DeValera